Letting go into the great mystery, surrender in life
taken from ANARCHY OF SPIRIT: an epistle for ridiculous times, from early writings by Jack Haas: this is a rare, online book
No matter what I have written here, nor how I have explained it, nor come to understand it, throughout it all I was nothing, and did nothing, for it was the great mystery of life which did it all. And when you come to the point of that recognition there is very little left to do. You are finished.
You see, the self which we are is nowhere and everywhere, it is everything and none; it is found in the 'there' which is 'here', and the 'here' which is 'nowhere'. To come to it we must simply die in life, live in death, surrender in the battle, battle in the flight, lift and drop, climb and fall, hope and deny, forget and remember, empty and fill, build and dismantle, release and yet care.
Understanding this, you eventually learn one of the most important lessons of all- how to give yourself completely to a situation, and how to let it go. You learn to invest your whole being, at every moment, into whatever lies before you, and you learn how to know when the shift is complete, to divest yourself, to kiss the ones you've loved goodbye, and move on to other fertile ground. You learn to die only because it leads to more life. You learn to let go only so that you can further receive. You learn to say goodbye, because only then will you be able to say hello.
You learn to leave each to their own loneliness and sorrow- it is their lesson, their way, and their only chance of return. We must bandage no bloodletting, or the worm shall never be gone
Indeed, you learn to stop trying to relieve misery from people’s lives when you realize it is God-given pain.
And so, if you have cleaned yourself out, opened yourself up, and broken down the walls which separated you from the rest of the world, you will find there comes a time when you must cease on letting others in, when you must cease taking on their sin, and must block their vexings from devouring you within. For once you have found your own light, others will seek to take it from you. Once you have shed your skin, others will try to crawl within. Once you have come to peace and stillness, others will do anything in their power to destroy you. That is when you take your white wings off, and put your black armor on. That is when your love turns from a feather into a sword. There is no other way.
Now is the time we must learn to die in Hell, to be re-born in Hell, to live in Hell, and to not be in Hell.
Early writings by Jack Haas: a rare, online book.